O My Father

Where to even begin. There's so many directions my mind is racing. Life has been quite busy lately and I've been sleeping less and sleeping in more than I have in awhile. But there's too much to catch up on so I'm just going to focus on my Earthly and Heavenly Father in this post this Father's Day.

In honor of Father's Day I'm including one of my favorite church songs. This video was filmed in one of my favorite locations, Tony's Grove up Logan Canyon. During my four years of college at Utah State I traveled up to Tony's Grove quite a bit. Sometimes for hikes and picnics with friends but I went there much more than anyone knew. I'd drive up and run around Tony's Grove when I needed time to think and process and pray and talk to my Heavenly Father. When I had decisions to make or looking for guidance I'd drive to Tony's grove. And so in honor of Father's day and it being Sunday here's a tune for you to enjoy about our Heavenly Father.

Fizzle Price

I'll be the first to admit it - my brother and I weren't always close. But I think going to the school at the same college for 3 years helped. We are quite different In high school I felt like it was always a joke for his friends to say "Braden'ssssss Sisterrrrrrr", like I didn't even have a first name. I always refer to my brother as Braden, but to friends in high school and college he was Fizz, or more affectionately known as Fizzle Price.

Over the years our relationship has grown, but there was one moment for me when it all changed. And there's even a snapshot that captured that moment for me.

Finding Peace

If it wasn't obvious in my earlier post, I've been struggling with forgiveness lately, and a bit of anger and all those other really fun feelings. I realized it was because I felt like I had never received closure and the apology for the neglectful and wrong actions from the night of my accident. And it made me feel like a terrible person. Over and over I'd try to suppress and ignore the thoughts telling myself that I shouldn't be feeling that way and that I should be above feeling anger anger, frustration etc. But I realized I needed to acknowledge those emotions and that it was totally okay to be feeling this way, and that it didn't make me a bad person. I also came across something that has helped me find peace and the apology I was seeking for closure.

Often times we think someone has to apologize, in order for forgiveness to be possible. But as I said before, forgiveness does not lessen the severity of the sin or wrong-doing, it increases faith in the atonement. And that is exactly where I'm at, but finding this message made me feel as though I received the apology I was looking for. I just never saw it because it was posted right after my accident while I was still in Las Vegas in ICU. So here is what was said, so for those times when anger resurfaces I can read this and remember, although it didn't feel like I got the apology I was looking for, this post helps me find peace. This was actually posted publicly initially and so that's why I feel it's okay to post again. The online post read: